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Jesus, between new (old) Panic(!) and Torchwood, my flist doesn't seem to be in a good fannish place the last few days, huh. I'm so sorry, lovelies. *hugs all of you*

In that spirit, let me... add to the negativity? Erm. I already threw all of this at [ profile] adellyna just now, as I am wont to do (HOW DOES SHE STILL LOVE ME, I REALLY DON'T KNOW) but I just need to get this out. Feel free to skip, of course!

I love American Idol fandom. There's parts I like better and parts that make me frowny-face, but it's pretty damn awesome and I've been having an absolutely wonderful time. That said: HOLY CRAP THE CONSTANT FOURTH WALL ISSUES ARE MAKING ME CRINGE SO HARD. I guess a lot of it is just the nature of the beast - as Mandi said to me, musicians as a general rule tend to (have to) be more accessible to the general public than actors on a TV show would be, and Twitter wasn't around for my last RPS fandom and I really feel like that dealt a huge blow to the fourth wall (both in good and in bad ways!) but, yeah. And - and I may be wrong on this - the entire fandom seems to revolve around [ profile] ontd_ai in a way that none of my previous fandoms revolved around a single community in quite the same way, and that's a whole other bag of issues I have, but that's not even really relevant. THE THING IS.

Look, I'm a fangirl. I'm not ashamed of my fandom involvement, I don't think it's something I (or anyone) should have to be embarrassed about per se. But I also believe that members of fandom? Are a very, um, special bunch. We GET certain things, we just do, in a way that (quote, unquote) normal people DON'T, and that's FINE, but when that fourth wall breaks down and the people I'm fangirling - who I presume have never been fannishly involved with something - get to see the macros and manips or the capslocking that is totally acceptable between us and the hyperbole and the chest-clutching and the general lameness that is, you know, OKAY and EXPECTED and actually kind of THE POINT in fandom, I just can't help but start thinking about how they must be like WHAT KIND OF FREAKSHOWS ARE THOSE PEOPLE and then I want to hide under my bed forever. I REALLY DO, I'M SORRY GUYS. I may be totally wrong here, maybe they think all that shit's hilarious and totally not weird or awkward at all? In which case, more power to them! But it makes me so uncomfortable, and it's the single reason I haven't really been able to get comfortable in and enjoy this fandom the way I have others in the past, and that makes me so sad, because basically everything else about it is mindblowingly awesome.

So, yes. In conclusion: I am a delicate and easily discomfited flower. /o\

... okay let's have something to make this post even a little bit worthwhile. HERE YOU GO:

Because if Kris fucking Allen does not make your heart melt, you might not even have one. YOU SHOULD GET THAT CHECKED OUT.
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Date: 2009-07-12 12:17 pm (UTC)
ext_16873: (misc} so shiny)
From: [identity profile]
Hee, no, that's true! I'm pretty sure Ryan Ross never wrote cringe-worthy Blink 182 fic and/or publicly capslocked about Mark Hoppus needing to be the father of his babies, though.

... on the other hand, it's Ryan Ross, so who really knows.

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Date: 2009-07-11 02:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Yeah, I'll never get over the decimation of the fourth wall business. So much secondhand embarrassment is involved in AI fandom. But there's also, like, epic levels of awesome on pretty much a daily basis. IT'S CONFUSING.

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Date: 2009-07-12 12:23 pm (UTC)
ext_16873: (misc} without a shred of dignity)
From: [identity profile]
THERE IS SO MUCH AWESOME, ESPECIALLY FROM TWITTER. I just really, really wish people would stop twittering and otherwise contacting the Idols, even though it makes me feel like those handler people who are all like, NO TOUCHING THE TALENT, PLS. (And then everyone is like LOL THE FOURTH WALL IS GONE ANYWAY and I'm like WELL MAYBE WE'D MANAGE TO REBUILD IT IF YOU'D STOP JUMPING ON THE RUINS FOR ONE DAMN SECOND.) /o\

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Date: 2009-07-11 10:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I love so much about the things that you choose to be. XDDDDD

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Date: 2009-07-12 12:25 pm (UTC)
ext_16873: (panic} melt your headaches/call it home)
From: [identity profile]
*kisses faaaaaaaaaaace*

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Date: 2009-07-13 05:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

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Date: 2009-07-15 07:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Hey, I'm with you. I like to believe that they exist in their world where we greet them politely after concerts and possibly give them well-intended gifts that will not harm or freak them out in any way, and then we exist in our world where we squee ridiculously and go off in our imaginations and they NEVER EVER NEED TO KNOW ABOUT OR SEE THAT. EVER. I don't know what I'd do if anyone I wrote about ever found my journal, but I know it wouldn't be a good thing.

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Date: 2009-07-27 06:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Ha. Our Lotrips roots show, don't they? Keepitsekkritkeepitsafe.

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Date: 2009-07-27 06:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I totally, completely agree with you. Just, I mean. There's nothing wrong with writing porn about your neighbour. There is, however, something very, very wrong with shoving that porn in your neighbour's face, making them read it in a hey, hey, look what I wrote, aren't you flattered? kind of way.

Keep it secret, keep it safe.


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